Very often we reflect and convince ourselves that regardless
of how bewildered our minds are we will find a way to tame the chaos. He had
learned to live with how impassive and indifferent he was. He loved
unconditionally, he cared deeply, and every inch of his heart was pink and
looked for a heart that beat for him. He finally found it in her and yet he
was unfulfilled. The chaos was temporarily put out when he drowned in idea’s
his heart didn’t believe in, he didn’t like the helplessness his childish soul he had felt. His light sparked often burning the empty display he’d let
build around him, but he put it out every day. The light was out but the dawn she’d
hoped for didn’t come…
If it doesn’t
give you joy, leave. It’s a short life and if it only brings you sorrow and angst
you are living it wrong. In the quest for
evolutionary immortality we struggle in order to win, to live on, to become eternal but the biology of our beings is simple and reminds us of our mortality with every breath we take. Yet we battle in an attempt to obtain
immortality, sometimes with legacy, sometimes in children, sometimes with faith
in god or man. We hope our memories will live on, our love will live on, our
faith will live on but they only die with us. We begin and we end. We can never be eternal
yet we waste every day hoping our life means something. Fall in love with
people that believe that every minute, every breath is ephemeral. Fall in
love with people that respect the transitory nature of life and value it.
One way plane ticket to the other side of the world, to
live the life of a small town somewhere in the middle of nowhere. You will live
an existence that some see unfit, conditions not perfect, basic luxury you take
for granted taken way. Twenty one and wandering the world where no one speaks
the language and smiles would be the only way to communicate, until you learn
and bring more into your life. A job unlike any other you’ve done, TEFL is
often criticised. “Anybody can teach in china” they told me.
A little something of a difference you could make, some new
ideas you’d give and a friend you’ll be to someone who really needs one. Take a
leap of faith, go with it, it might not come your way again she said. The parks
in London didn’t have a beating heart did they? , you saw all the parks, took
all the lines of the underground, took in some art and some culture and
hopefully learned a fair bit but did your soul grow? ……It did I insisted.
Let it grow a little more, maybe stammer along the way! …..Oh
piss off
Drunk on tears waiting for the season of a meaningless
sorrow to end. He once said to me, independence was nothing but a
stipulation, as the mind would always be entombed in its self-loathing plight.Never would there be an independence from this season until
the mind broke free from the sardonic empire that labelled actions. When the philosophies
in existence shattered only then free from predestined ideas and enduring beliefs
YOU would emerge.Only then would the seasons change
In
the world of infinite possibilities it was as though I sprinted with blinkers. Never cared for a good time, just a deep
passion for ambitions that had over taken my world. Hustling in the fast lane,
no time to breathe in the ecstasy or agony. Was I ever taught contentment,
could I ever learn to be content? This was who I had grown into, this is what
they created, so focused on who I had to become, I had lost sight of who I was.
Waitress, hostess, bartender, nanny, Teacher, babysitter,
dog walker, flyer distributor, cook, hair model, market research participant,
health writer, ghost writer, awareness campaign executive , London student
blogger, student ambassador, journalist!
I leave London a better person, not because of the
education. It’s very standard, the good, the bad, the useless bit of any
education are all part of the system but what gave me lesson of a lifetime wasn’t
the architecture or the advanced city or the global atmosphere but the fearlessness
this city instils, the drive it gave me.
The chance to seek some independence,
financial independence is after all the first step to real uncompromised
liberation.
The
initial shame in being a cleaner, the fear of spilling a soup as a server, the joy to see a child put his trust in me, the happiness of that paw pushing at me
for a walk, the relief of not burning someone’s dinner, the pride in seeing my
work getting published week after week, the humour of my participation in stupid undergrad experiments for a fiver.
I was so much for a year, I was
capable and I learned respect for others and myself.
It’s perhaps the best feeling in the world, having the
chance to live in two worlds at a time.
One where I wake up and get to work on an overcrowded tube,
I smile to myself every time I hear someone say “MIND THE GAP” after all I live
in London and when one gets tired of London they tire of life !
The other when I wake up and walk to Richmond Park which is
only 15 minutes from my University halls, I smile to myself every time I think
of the how lucky I am to be able to walk among the fallow deer without having
to take a buck safari !
Trip sponsored by London Universities International Partnership #LUIP
Most International students moving to London for studies,
burden themselves packing a lot of their traditional food in their bags. I
suppose such behaviour is based on the fact that they are unaware about the availability
of their cultural cuisine in a new city.
I did the same. I carried readymade
packets worrying about my palate as I did not know much about the new city and
its tastes.
However if I have to give any advice to any international
student about what they need to carry for their bellies, I would say that London
offers global cuisine which is available in a variety of ranges and qualities
from cheap, affordable and expensive depending upon which super market one
would choose to go to buy their purchases from. I suggest going to Asda, Co-op,
and a few local stores which are reasonably priced. A Saintsbury or a Waitrose would be a little
on the expensive side. The university
international school committees often forget to advise their students regarding
such matters probably considering them to be very basic information and
therefore such guidelines held back, causes a lot of inconvenience to the new
students and is difficult on their pockets too.
So now what are the things an international student must
bring along when he/she packs for London?
I would say winter wear is a basic and an essential part
when moving to this part of the UK. A pair of warm boots, a few jumpers, a warm
winter coat and a pair of gloves is a must. Having these is definitely essential
for if one fails to them then a visit to Primark would become inevitable but
then one would end up buying things of a poor quality at a cheaper rate. I
would also suggest that good quality stationery is overpriced in London and
therefore carrying some along would do well to a student. For people who smoke,
bringing their brands/roll-ups along from their countries would be beneficial to
them because the same would be once again expensive in London.
In short, I would suggest that one should travel light and
not unnecessarily over load their journey since a lot is available at reasonable
prices in London. Also one must use caution to not rush to buy all the
essentials at the same time from the same place but give time to move around
and make a judgement of the prices at different places and then only make
purchases.
Though London is considered one of the most expensive cities
in the world, if only one were to be a little cautious there would be not much
of a financial crunch.
Trip sponsored by London Universities International Partnership #LUIP
I voted for you. Please do not shame me, my country and your country that trusted you to take us towards a progressive era. It has been two years that my anger has been seething and I have waited for the Indian judicial system to make the correct decision and hang the rapists if not castrate them first. I blame you for feeling ashamed of the nation that I was born in. I blame you for banning the movie ‘India’s Daughter’ and there by letting the parts of our misinformed society of egoistic uncultured men and women to feel less shameful when their mind-set is reflected by a criminal.
Mr. Venkaiah Naidu- “This is an international conspiracy to defame India."
Dear Sir, you sworn in as the Minister for Urban Development and Parliamentary Affairs on 26 May 2014. Do you not see that urban development is impossible when a woman’s right to work after 7 pm has been questioned? Does it not defame India when you decide to ban a documentary that will perhaps help women like me to channel their anger towards reform?
Meenakshi Lekhi - "this will certainly affect tourism."
Dear Ma’am as an active member of the Standing Committee on Urban Development are you only concerned about tourism? Yes, most of my foreign friends have doubts of every visiting our country but not because of the awareness of crimes against women but because they won’t feel safe in a country that bans a documentary which could perhaps do more good that the government and all its reformers.
Rajnath Singh's- “The dignity of women will not allow any attempt by any individual, group or organization to leverage such unfortunate incidents for commercial benefit”
Dear Mr. Home Minister last I heard you claimed that English was bad for our society. I nodded my head and tried to wrap my head around your statement trying to understand why you would make language an issue when our country comprises of around 30 million illiterate young women. What must I think Sir?
No Sir, I assure you my dignity will not be affected by what a rapist thinks of me. My dignity is however bruised by a politician that justifies why he feels the need to ban a documentary that brings to light the reality of my life in India. Let’s not talk dignity sir, you just tried to shame Leslee, a woman that left her children behind for two years only to voice the opinion of women that are far to oppressed in the country that you promised to help lead towards prosperity.
Babulal Gaur- It is a social crime which depends on the man and the woman. It is sometimes right and sometimes wrong.
Mr Gaur, I hear your comments were dismissed by the BJP as your personal opinion. I however have decided to blame this on your lack of responsibility and would request you to resign if not rethink your purpose in life.
Ramsewek Paikar – No one commits rape intentionally, it happens by mistake.
Mr. Paikar, I forgive your ignorance. Please resign intentionally and correct the mistake.
Dear Mr. Modi,
I am a young student that walks bravely on the streets on London at 1 am. I am the same girl that was eve teased outside a theatre in Mumbai at 6pm. So when your government was incapable of protecting my dignity by its very efficient law, I do not understand the home minister’s sudden concern over my dignity.
I regret to inform you that with all the education I gained in a foreign land and all my skills as a health practitioner I will not settle for India, I will not make it my home and I do not wish to be part of a country that has no place for a woman. I cannot cure the sick mind-set of our society but you can. I hope you do and someday I hope I can return to an India that finally acknowledges me as more than a flower that needs protection.
The shame of India is not the documentary directed by Leslee Udwin. The shame of India is its women that tolerate being tyrannized.
Kind regards,
Educated Indian.
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How lucky am I! Spending a relaxed afternoon
on a boat in the Thames. This river might not look like much to the average Londoner
but there’s so much more to it than the tower bridge.
Strange but intriguing, Henry the III was gifted a polar bear from
Norway, the king kept it locked in the tower of London only letting it out
sometimes to swim in the Thames.
Tower pier to Big Ben this city cruise
covers it all! If I had only one day in London this is where I would spend my afternoon.
As our cruise guide talked endlessly about the
historical buildings that stood overlooking the Thames, I was a little bored
until he said Daniel Radcliffe, pointing towards the City of London School. Unfortunately
I didn’t meet harry porter! But I now know where the clumsy accident prone pretend
magician went to school For Real :P
#PerksOfBeingAStudentInLondon
Trip sponsored by London Universities International Partnership #LUIP
Being a London student ambassador has its perks
and I recently was given the opportunity to visit an abandoned underground
station in London which had once been used as a World War II command center and
had also been functional as a shelter by Winston Churchill and his war cabinet. Photo credits :https://ptegblog.wordpress.com/2010/04/29/down-street/
The informative afternoon
began with a presentation by David
Leboff, a London underground enthusiast and famous author. My fellow
ambassadors and I learned all about the history of the London underground while
seated comfortably in a presentation room at the Transport for London headquarters
at the iconic 55 Broadway building.
Later that afternoon we headed to the rooftop
of the exceptionally historic 55 Broadway to soak in some sun sunshine and enjoy
the marvelous view. The TFL headquarters will be relocating and this building
will soon be converted into a residential complex for the super-rich in 2015!
Next we were on our way to experience what very
few people are even aware of. One of London’s abandoned underground stations. It
stands lost and forgotten in-between Hide park corner and Piccadilly Circus. Wet,
cold, dirty and possibly haunted this was one of those experiences that gives you
the creeps yet the thrill keeps you going. This was a secret location but
thanks to Google image search I now know I was at down street tube station!
Some secrets are meant to be shared, if you’re a student or tourist or a Londoner with
a fancy for the unusual this should definitely be on your 'Places to see in London' list !
Trip sponsored by London Universities International Partnership #LUIP
Thanks to my friend and fellow London International Student
Ambassador Audrey Faltin for the nomination.
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Why did you choose to study in London?
Apart from being a gorgeous city, London is one of the
only places that offers a master’s programme in Obesity PREVENTION. Another
reason for my choice was the scholarship I received from the University of
Roehampton. Supporting myself in one of the world’s most expensive
city wasn't going to be easy without a scholarship. The
open door policy in my University, the lovely lush green campus, living so
close to the heart of London and yet sheltered in the greenery of Richmond. I
love it!
My beautiful University
What is your favorite song to dance to?
Taylor Swift's "Shake It Off"...This
song is so danceable
What is the first app you use each day and why?
My sweet sweet mother has finally learned to use what’s-app(an
instant messing application) .. That’s the one app I can’t live without, it
keeps me connected to everyone, especially my family.
Why were you given your name?
After great debate my mother finally decided
based on a number of factors. I think the book "The Divine Romance"
by paramahansa yogananda influenced her decision a lot. She
initially wanted to name me after a goddess.
What was (or is) the best job you've had?
I have always enjoyed writing and have a passion for
healthy eating.. getting paid to write a heath awareness and inspiration
books is amazing.
If you could repeal one law what would it be?
The Caste based reservation system
used by some educational institutionsaggravates me. I am not a minority nor do I specifically
fall into any specific cast or religious categories as I'm the child of an inter
castmarriage. Even though society
is very open minded today it needs to revise such stupid laws. Out of 12 seats
for a master’s programme 10 were allotted based on casts and minority.
One seat was in house (for the students of that university). Therefore
more than 1000 applicants competed for 1 seat! I know in a way it’s an
effort to uplift the lower strata of the society but this
is definitely not equality of opportunity. What a shame !
What is your comfort food?
Focaccia with Hummus..I absolutely
love it and it never makes me feel bloated.
What is the
best book you've read
this year? Ever?
Ever - Has to be the "House of
night series by PC Cast". These books filled me with wonder and
imagination as a teenager. It’s nowhere close to a classic but still
will be my all-time favorite series.
2014- "Jars Filled with Gold by Ruby Malshe" The story
is one of survival. The Hypocrisy of a community
that does not acknowledge a daughter. Growing up the
daughter of a Zoroastrian woman and a Hindu man can be challenging, I
think this book needs to be read by many.
If you had 10 minutes on a popular TV talk show, what would you
talk about?
Modern day slavery..
Educated people with full time jobs should not have to struggle to make ends
meet.